Unfortunately, things have not been easy. Well, it's never been easy, but recently, and it just seems to get worse and worse, people have been pissing me the fuck off more than ever. People I know, people who I considered to be my friends, just nothing but liars, hypocrites and general assholes. Over and over again. At this point I have no clue what I'm supposed to do, I keep getting back-stabbed and turned on, no one is taking my side on anything when I try to talk about these issues, so on and so forth. I've just come to the conclusion that people are selfish, and that's that. They care about themselves, they really do not give a shit about you, and if they do, it's not for a reason you want; it's something shallow. It's something you inherited or were merely born with.
At least, that's how the swarm seems to behave around me, lol. I could go on and on about this crap but I'd just get a bunch of "whaaat nooo people are goood what are you talking abooout?" bullshit.
I tend to be pretty vague when I talk about this stuff, so let's get more specific... Say you're getting interrupted and/or ignored a lot, even when you are the one whose supposed to have the attention for whatever reason. You talk to someone about how it's annoying you, and that person gives you advice, saying "you have to be assertive and tell them right then and there that they shouldn't interrupt you" or whatever. So, one day that same issue happens with the person that just gave you said advice, and you utilize that advice and tell them to pay attention, and then they get all pissy with you and attack you for it. What the fuck? What the hell is wrong with these stupid assholes? They can't even do something as simple as what they said they were going to do? Did they just chuck everything about themselves away in that one moment? What the fuck is wrong with people? I don't pull this stupid shit, am I insane or something?
I feel like I can see so many things that others can't/just don't want to see. I see people contradicting themselves, I see people being an asshole and out of nowhere attempting to be overly nice but not apologizing and pretending that they never did anything wrong, etcetera. I talk to people about this all the time, people I considered smart or trustworthy in some way, and even then, they still don't see it, or even worse, they say they see it, and then the next day forget what they just said and say they didn't see it. What the fuck.
Am I blowing things out of proportion? Overreacting? Uh, maybe. It's hard to say when this is just how your mind has responded to these issues your whole life.